11 Years Later

When I was a little kid I used to ~LOVE~ flying home because we'd get off the plane, get through customs, get our luggage and walk out into the arrival area and my grandpa would be standing there waving. I'd run up to him give him a big hug, get my kiss and he'd drive us home. It was always my absolute FAVORITE part of any trip.

When I was 8, and in grade 2, my grandfather had a heart attack in his sleep. I never had the chance to say goodbye and I've recently made my peace with losing my one and only grandpa. Along with his passing, our airport pick-ups became nonexistent. To this day every time I walk through those doors to the arrival area there's a slight pang of loneliness and longing for my grandpa.

Over the years I've returned to Trudeau airport only to have my parents waiting in the car just outside, no friendly faces in the swarming crowds of the arrival area. To be honest, I'm always a little disappointed, there's this huge loving feeling that just happens when there's someone, any friendly face waiting for you after a plane ride home.

This year was different... Sis and I got off the plane, ran through customs, got our bags and made it through the doors... The usual pang of longing for grandpa crept over me, as I momentarily mourned the man I loved so wholeheartedly... It was short lived however because I immediately saw a face in the crowd, a familiar face, a friend. Emily was there, although not on my behalf, it still felt nice to have a warm homecoming. So thanks Em, I've waited for that moment for 11 years.

AWKWARD

Here's the scene: the members of the Shapiro family are all sitting nicely around a coffee table playing scrabble and Grey's Anatomy happens to be on tv in the background.

I'm not exactly paying attention to which episode it is, figuring it's like last week's or whatever. little do I know Erica is about to have her crazy emotional COMING OUT cry-fest with Callie. I mean really!!! So my father's watching and trying to figure out who she's sleeping with cause he obviously doesn't watch Grey's and he's a little taken aback seeing as how his semi-out daughter is sitting to his right. So I keep texting on my phone trying to pretend I'm oblivious to the RAINBOW FEST that's playing "out" on the tv about 2 feet away from me.. when... I happen to look up and catch my sister trying to guage my father's reaction. LIKE HELLO. I know what that look means. She sees me watching her and immediately goes back to typing on her laptop obviously telling one of her friends about the drama unfolding.

THIS WOULD HAPPEN TO ME.

Seriously, I decided early today that I wanted to try and make my family less World War II-esque and more Brady Bunch... for what reason? 19 years later means its long overdue. There's enough family drama between my cousins and aunts to last me a lifetime, let's try to keep it "all in the family" if you know what I mean. Either way I figured it be nice bonding time playing scrabble, which it was, until... the gay celebration trampeded right through.

So yeah... it totally made things awkward, especially since lil sis doesnt know I'm out, although she's probably guessed by now. I'm also thinking she's dawning some rainbow stripes too. So EPIC fail to that attempt. SERIOUSLY.

A Little Bit of This and a Little Bit of That

So it's another wonderful PostSecret Sunday!!!! Another secret obviously amazed me today because it hit close to home:

Brilliant? I know. Way to go mom and dad.

This kind of brings me back to a blogpost I DIDNT make about my fight with Big Momma earlier this week. Basically, Big Poppa was an asshole and I called him out on it, and then Hot Shot yelled at Big Momma for no reason and made her cry. Anywhooo... I basically bullied her into talking about her feelings and bitched about how 19 years later she's still totally incapable of communicating... and furthermore, that because of her inability to express herself to me, that she didn't deserve a chance to come into the Psych Warden's office to "therapize". Anyhow we managed to have a 45 minute talk/semi-screaming match. I guess I'm on my way to that fresh start I've fantasized about! New outlook is working, woo hoo!

So Ryan has 218 hits as of this second on his video. Thanks to all the people who went to the link :). Uncle Steven thinks he can get 100 000 hits and then Ry will be on Jay Leno. He even offered to make sure that I got on the show. ha! as if!

So... I spoke to Lex today! I havent spoken to that cutie in a loooong time, anyways, her marks are still high in school and she's excited for us to be coming down in a few weeks :) I'm so not excited for anything other than to enjoy the warm weather and see my cousins :D everything else is going to be hellish. I mean really? The Adam's family in a <2000 condo =" death.">

Another Florida issue - the Concordia tentative exam schedule states that my Research Methods exam is Friday, December 19th at 7 until 10 pm. Shit sucks cause I've got plane tickets to Florida that day leaving at 4:45 pm. what to do what to do!?!?!

So my soccer girls didn't show up today, piled on top of Emerson's gross incompetence, can we say, Lauren's supa-pissed? I think so!!!! It looks like we'll be defaulting the season. Sexy!

Needless to say, V is coming home in a few hours and I couldn't be more excited. I miss her face more than anything else in this world. I'm SO incredibly happy to see her AHHHH words don't express this feeling. It's been nearly a month! I'm dying!

Peace and Love. Peace and Love.