11 Years Later

When I was a little kid I used to ~LOVE~ flying home because we'd get off the plane, get through customs, get our luggage and walk out into the arrival area and my grandpa would be standing there waving. I'd run up to him give him a big hug, get my kiss and he'd drive us home. It was always my absolute FAVORITE part of any trip.

When I was 8, and in grade 2, my grandfather had a heart attack in his sleep. I never had the chance to say goodbye and I've recently made my peace with losing my one and only grandpa. Along with his passing, our airport pick-ups became nonexistent. To this day every time I walk through those doors to the arrival area there's a slight pang of loneliness and longing for my grandpa.

Over the years I've returned to Trudeau airport only to have my parents waiting in the car just outside, no friendly faces in the swarming crowds of the arrival area. To be honest, I'm always a little disappointed, there's this huge loving feeling that just happens when there's someone, any friendly face waiting for you after a plane ride home.

This year was different... Sis and I got off the plane, ran through customs, got our bags and made it through the doors... The usual pang of longing for grandpa crept over me, as I momentarily mourned the man I loved so wholeheartedly... It was short lived however because I immediately saw a face in the crowd, a familiar face, a friend. Emily was there, although not on my behalf, it still felt nice to have a warm homecoming. So thanks Em, I've waited for that moment for 11 years.

New Year - New Philosophy

So as I'm preparing the condo to ring in the New Year with friends and family who happen to be nearby, I've decided that I won't analyze like I had previously decided to do. I'm just going to live life... take it as it comes, one day at a time, no slower or faster. I need to stop analyzing and thinking too much. Up until now, living in my head has been an up and down roller coaster not necessarily leaning towards for better or worse. Perhaps, life isn't meant to be figured out in one afternoon stroll on the beach.

So here's to the new year: may life come too fast, too slow, and at the right time. May it be filled with lots of learning experiences, great memories and much to reflect on.

This is the start of something good... I feel it.

Textbook Life Lessons

"Unfortunately, life, unlike our clothing, does not come with labels attached, telling us what is going on and how we should respond." I mean really... why is my social psychology textbook so deep and giving me advice on life? How pathetic that I've actually gained some insight from a textbook.

So I've been in a bit of a funk lately, as I'm sure many of you have been made well aware... trying to put life in to perspective in the face of impending finals is no small feat, let me tell you. Anyhow, I've been doing my best to stay cheerful (hockey games, chocolate, more chocolate, lots of tv) and that tends to put a major crimp in the amount of homework that gets done and the number of chapters I get to knock off for my exams... Anyways, while finally sitting down and studying for SP, this quote made its way onto the page and into my readings... It took me off guard a little bit and distracted me from studying.

If only life was a little simpler or if only there was a handbook/guide that told me what to do in these types of situations. bah. Shitty mood. Joy.
Hopefully Florida in 2 weeks will return me to my former glory.

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Sugar and Spice and Everything Nice

This is a home in St. Andrews, Boca Raton, Florida. Now, obviously this is a beautiful home. See the thing is, it doesn't even COMPARE to the one my aunt/uncle just built and this one is selling for several MILLION dollars!! Now I'm not usually fond of the ostentatious lifestyle but St. Andrews is an incredible place (click here) to see some pictures - we had dinner at the club house last night (yes 12 of us, walked in, without reservations and were promptly seated, with three personal waiters - water boy, dish removal and special requests). Now, that in and of itself should be pretty impressive, but the actual assortment of food at the buffet was impressive - three types of steak, lobster and a kids bar with chicken fingers, fries and hot dogs, an amazing salad bar, an ice cream bar and a desert bar that made my stomach hurt looking at it. But the very point that valet parked our cars, and our overly ugly and huge Crown Victoria didn't quite compare to three Bentley's, Rolls Royce and insane amounts of Mercedes, Lexuses and BMWs were just plain out of this world... Now I cant keep up with the lives of the rich and the famous, but really I wouldn't mind being my cousin for a few days. My aunt and uncle certainly know how to live large...either way I'm not jealous but that life is certainly nice for a few days, I could see how it gets supremely boring though... well that's Florida for me. M

Now this is interesting. The new macbook may have a million amazing features, a great design and a cool idea (being built from a single piece of aluminum as their video so aptly demonstrates) but they failed to do some serious inspections!! check out the keyboard - seriously f10, f10, f12? what the hell happened to f11? How do you even adjust the volume level from the keyboard? Seriously, for such a major company with such a huge launch, how could this have gone unnoticed?!

Now... this is ground breaking - a baby is born with a PENIS on his back. Yes, that's right - a PENIS. How incredible is that? Now, we have enough problems with guys being cocky with ONE such tool, imagine them with two? How does this even WORK!? haha I'm supremely confused. What kind of nick names can I think of? Back Prick? Flip Dick? Dick Flip? None that are actually good...moving on :)

Now... this is just plain funny.

I think the following PostSecret is self-explanatory and obviously directed.  Either way, when I saw this on PostSecret a while back, I felt my spidy senses tingle and knew I just had to  save it on my hard drive. So glad I did, because when I flipped through my favorite/saved PostSecrets, it popped up and made me smile. The connection, all these months later, is still very much profound.

Bi-Directional Miserable Love

Sooo.. I got through my week of hell and now I'm in semi-sunny Florida. No need to be jealous though because I'm cramped into a 1500 square foot appartment with three other people I cant stand. Now, on all usual accounts that wouldn't seem sooo terrible, I mean I'm in Florida after all but there's just something about having been here over 50 times in the last 19 years... with another 2 trips planned within the next 5 months. I mean... I ~LOVE~ Florida when my parents and snotty sister arent the only people I see... but seeing as how that's a non-negotiable option this trip, I'm miserable!!! 

On top of it I miss V, a lot. I spoke to her last night for a long time on BBIM but it's just not the same as chilling in my car, going for dinner, ice cream trips and shopping experiences. It just doesnt compare. Either way November 7th is around the corner and I couldn't be ANY more excited for it :)

So... yeah I felt the need to post - I felt slightly guilty for not having posted since Tuesday.

A Little Bit of This and a Little Bit of That

So it's another wonderful PostSecret Sunday!!!! Another secret obviously amazed me today because it hit close to home:

Brilliant? I know. Way to go mom and dad.

This kind of brings me back to a blogpost I DIDNT make about my fight with Big Momma earlier this week. Basically, Big Poppa was an asshole and I called him out on it, and then Hot Shot yelled at Big Momma for no reason and made her cry. Anywhooo... I basically bullied her into talking about her feelings and bitched about how 19 years later she's still totally incapable of communicating... and furthermore, that because of her inability to express herself to me, that she didn't deserve a chance to come into the Psych Warden's office to "therapize". Anyhow we managed to have a 45 minute talk/semi-screaming match. I guess I'm on my way to that fresh start I've fantasized about! New outlook is working, woo hoo!

So Ryan has 218 hits as of this second on his video. Thanks to all the people who went to the link :). Uncle Steven thinks he can get 100 000 hits and then Ry will be on Jay Leno. He even offered to make sure that I got on the show. ha! as if!

So... I spoke to Lex today! I havent spoken to that cutie in a loooong time, anyways, her marks are still high in school and she's excited for us to be coming down in a few weeks :) I'm so not excited for anything other than to enjoy the warm weather and see my cousins :D everything else is going to be hellish. I mean really? The Adam's family in a <2000 condo =" death.">

Another Florida issue - the Concordia tentative exam schedule states that my Research Methods exam is Friday, December 19th at 7 until 10 pm. Shit sucks cause I've got plane tickets to Florida that day leaving at 4:45 pm. what to do what to do!?!?!

So my soccer girls didn't show up today, piled on top of Emerson's gross incompetence, can we say, Lauren's supa-pissed? I think so!!!! It looks like we'll be defaulting the season. Sexy!

Needless to say, V is coming home in a few hours and I couldn't be more excited. I miss her face more than anything else in this world. I'm SO incredibly happy to see her AHHHH words don't express this feeling. It's been nearly a month! I'm dying!

Peace and Love. Peace and Love.