"Grief is like the ocean..."

As we all know One Tree Hill was beyond sad tonight. What you might not all know is that I bawled like a baby for the last 6.5 minutes straight. More importantly, a line struck me as pivotal tonight and I absolutely insist on exploring it. 

"Grief is like the ocean, stronger, deeper and bigger than us" (or something along those lines anyhow). Quite frankly I dont think I can imagine anything truer than those few words.

For so many years I've battled my grief, one loss after another padded with the torment of my own mind rehashing the events and the details over and over again. The pain feels like needles scratching for entry to my veins, diving and missing, insisting on second chances. 

Writing this blog is hurting my head filled with visions of a past I shouldn't dare re-enter.