Scandalous Secrets and One Really Big Lie!!!

Clearly not a secret, I'm in love with PostSecret.. now it isn't an ordinary obsession - it's practically a way of life... as a member of the PostSecret Community (PSC), a tight knit community that for the most part, is supported by diehard PS fans like yours truly... Last Sunday's non-English secrets forced me to find explanations and translations in the PSC, like every other week, however, once I've ever enterred the PSC there's no turning back for several minutes and sometimes hours. Long story short, after reading a few typical threads I stumbled upon the "Text a Stranger Your Secret" thread, an idea that was started on the MySpace PS page several weeks back. I decided to participate and posted my cell phone number for the PSC to send me their secrets. An hour had passed by and Emily had joined me for our routine study sessions. 

About 20 minutes into our session my BlackBerry started doing its enerving vibrations against the hardwood dining room table. To my surprise and Emily's jealousy :P, I had received a secret: "He used me for about a year and i didn't mean anything to him, i can sense it. Now he just wants to be "friends" and i feel so broken.." I dont think I could possibly find the words to describe the excitement that rippled through my body as I read the word's that this girl poured into me through her Secretified Text Message. Naturally I responded and we had a few messages back and forth. I then received a second message from another PS fan: "I'm hardly ever sure that my girlfriend loves me anymore." After I replied, he also sent the following: "I've always had thoughts about other guys and am still too afraid of the opinions of others to really publicly admit it." This secret obviously ruffled my rainbow feathers and my heart went out to the poor boy whose stuck in a relationship with a girlfriend who doesn't love him and feelings for boys that he can't express. We spoke back and forth for a few minutes, helping each other with the secrets we each released into each other's inboxes... the feelings of relief overcoming me like wave after wave hitting the boardwalk... 

I received a third text message: "I told everyone I quit smoking but I didn't. I feel almost guilty enough to quit. Just not enough". I tried to help him realize that until he wanted it for himself, it would be more than an impossible challenge, he agreed and moved into the abyss of the real world. Now... these were the three PSCers whose lives intercollided with mine that fateful Sunday night... and I thought the joy of PS text messages would end but I was in for a real treat...

While sitting in my Research Methods class this morning I received a text message from Mr. Gay and Has a GF (as his cell number is so aptly listed in my BlackBerry). It read: "I really want to make a (somewhat vandalous) post secret wall in my school bathroom but i know none of the boys at my school would get it and respond." Naturally I told him that he should do it for the simple reason that he has no idea whose life he might touch by doing it. So 5 days later, I am still receiving wonderful secrets in my phone's inbox, and I'm LOVIIIIIN' IT like Mickey D's. 

Amidst all this I do have a confession to make. I, Lauren Shapiro, was deceitful and hilarious. Emily, in all her jealousy :P, listed her cell number on the same thread in the PSC in hopes of receiving some of her own scandalous secrets. After about 20 minutes of non-excitement (and after much prohibition of my doing homework-ness) I ran upstairs to my computer, and used Bell Mobility's online-to-cell texting service posing as a PSCer with a secret to release to only one special individual. You guessed it... I fabricated a phone number and a secret and sent it to Em. See... Emily doesn't know this, and I'm sure right now she is reading this and her red hair is turning brighter and more red with smoke flaring from her nostrils (hahahah pause for funny visual)... but really, it was for the sake of my education. I NEEEEEEDED to study and Em, you really just wouldn't shut up. I love you though and I meant no harm. (Perhaps that's why you never received a reply?)

Anyways, glad to get that off my chest. :). 

514-923-8052 is the number to send any secrets to (and Em - no hate messages, please?!)