Sorry for the Randomness

"I'd rather spend my life close to the birds than wishing I had wings." - House.

Obviouuuusly I thought this was a relevant quote to my life. I'm just not entirely sure how. I mean it's fairly obvious as to HOW, I think it's more of a depth and how serious is this type of problem. 

Anyways, I think my little anecdote will shed some light on the whole situation. So I helped Homemaker and her sister move tonight, well really just the sis is moving, but irregardless. Anyways, as I packed up her belongings into my light/crossover SUV (much smaller than a regular SUV is the point of that) it suddenly dawned on me that like 98% of this woman's possessions from the last 14 years of her life can be packed into three loads of my car. Now, for some people that's a lifetime's worth of possessions, but to me it seemed like a very small amount.

Naturally, this freaked me out a little. See Homemaker and sis came to Canada hoping to start a better life and perhaps provide a better life to the family's they left back at home. Now, I'm sure if you asked either of them if this is what they expected, they'd say no, but I think that's a fairly obvious answer - dreams tend to be crushed, especially when finding a better, bigger, more prosperous life. But I bet if you asked them if this is how they thought their lives would end up, they'd give a more forceful no. Even more strange is that if you asked them what they had in mind, they probably couldn't even give you a remotely decent answer.

So my point? That possessions are so meaningless to some, yet for some reason I found myself defining Homemaker's sis by characterizing her life but what she owned... k, this clearly makes no sense, but made a whole lot more sense in my mind.

Moving on... it's Paparazzi's birthday and I know she absolutely adores reading the psychobabble of this blog soo... Happy Birthdayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

Anyways, it kind of just dawned on me that the quote above is probably related to my friendships. Namely, Bullet Proof who I've always thought very highly of for an assortment of reasons, one being that I always thought she was very capable of achieving great things in life, see I worded that in the past, but it still very much applies to the present. Either way, I guess I've just never thought of myself as the type of person who'd be capable of achieving greatness on a large scale, I mean, I've always assumed I'd get my PhD, thus resigning me to many years with the title of Dr. but nevertheless, no more greatness than that. So I seem to be believing that be close to someone I believe can achieve greatness is better than attempting to achieve greatness myself and failing.... failing similarly to the terrible way in which I just got my point across. Geez this is one failure of a blog.

Another profound thought I had sometime during the week was the relevance of the plastic turquoise bracelet I've been sporting for well over a year. It's one of those supportive Livestrong-types however it's currently blank (as in no writing whatsoever on it), and that's for a very ironic reason... See.. once upon a time it said: "One day Alzheimer's Disease will just be a memory", obviously the implicit message is obvious, but more bizarrely is the fact that the words rubbed off leaving me with just a plastic band. 

Now, for those of you who are well aware that my grandmother was diagnosed with AD (a fatal diagnosis, hence the past tense). So I've always been really supportive and especially sympathetic to fundraisers and other such groups for AD and it comes as no shock that I'd have the bracelet... but what's most shocking to me is that despite the fact that the words have well worn off, I still wear the bracelet and regard it with the same care I did when it was clearly inscribed with the powerful message. Anyhow, the irony strikes me - a message about never forgetting was forgotten when it wore off... how profound. Anyways, just wanted to share that with all of you. I clearly don't have very much to blog about (yay! I suppose) and felt guilty for not blogging as frequently as last Sunday (3 blogs for anyone who noticed!). 

Hope everyone enjoyed the warm weather :) See you next time and perhaps I'll be slightly more stable and less nonchalant and unaffected.